Trying to be the best version of my self but tripping the whole way there.
Now that I can honestly say you are out of my life for good. Reading my old posts only showed me the things I knew about you then didn’t change. I feel pathetic knowing that I knew you were no good, yet I liked having someone there and thought I could change you.
I wish I could right this inspiring post about how I’m going to change but I always seem to fall back to my old ways.
I hope for once in my life, I can strive to be more. In every sense…
A better friend
A better person
A better daughter
A better christian
A better sister
A better me
Maybe this time will be different? Maybe if I try hard enough, I can actually change for the better.
when will i learn
(Source: -theperfectmistake, via when-the-truth-is-imissyou)
More quotes here..
More quotes here..
I just met with my personal trainer. I wish I would have done this earlier. I am so ready for this journey. Time to do me.
Somewhere, somehow I got off the path I was suppose to be on. I don’t know how I got to this point but I know this isn’t where I’m suppose to be. I second guessed my self, I went against my moral compass and I wound up here. I can’t change you and I have to stop allowing you to change me. I knew sooo long ago you were nothing but trouble but I tried to convince my self otherwise. Now I’m sitting here full of regrets, lost and without my pride. And now I feel like Taylor Swift.
I don’t even recognize my self anymore and I don’t know how to fix it. All I do is question everything I’ve ever been sure of.
I need to…
go back to church.
I successfully just lost a friend I’ve been friends with since senior year of high school. Six years and now nothing. This feels awful, I know it wasn’t the healthiest relationship and he may not have been the best influence but I miss him already. Who am I going to text every 4.5 secs. fuckkkkk
worst week ever
"Meredith: Our intentions are always pure. We always want to do what is right, but we also have the drive to push boundaries. So we’re in danger of taking things to far. We’re told to do no harm while we’re trained to cut you open with a knife. So when we do things when we should have left well enough alone. Because its hard to admit when there’s no problem to treat, to let it alone before we make it so much worse. Because we cause terrible damage."
I think I’m starting to actually have real life feelings for you. Can’t wait to see how this one plays out.